22 September 2007

precious three

Let me show you something...


Yep, you guessed it! Those are mine.

I know what you're thinking, and yes,
I know. It's only because I love you that you get to see what I saw this morning when I stopped long enough in the whirlwind of my week and finally looked down. I actually had flip flops on... (Yes, I KNOW).

This is the answer to that question I keep hearing lately: "Where have you
been?"

I've been busy - acclimating to my new reality. Relearning life in some ways. I'm trying to remain calm, grounded, balanced and present in midst of the currents pulling and pushing me in many new directions. Some days I float; others, I may very well drown. But on most days, my head is above water, and I'm treading: Immersing. Purging. Prioritizing. Reprioritizing. Reading, writing, rereading, rewriting and then reading and writing some more. I've put on some new hats. I've parted with others. I'm still trying to figure out what to do with a few.

Especially telling is the fact that I haven't found (or made) the three spare minutes it takes to remove my old toenail polish. Instead, I've devoted those precious minutes elsewhere. I feel like I've been doing a lot of that lately. It's been good. It's been necessary, but good Lord, LOOK AT MY TOES!!!!

Somehow a month went by, and then finally, by the grace and mercy of God, I paused long enough to
SEE. I soaked it in. I listened and heard the faint cries...

HHHHEEELLLLPPPP... Someone... ANYONE. Groom us. Trim us. Polish us... Slow down for three minutes... PLEEEEASE... SAVE US!

"I think I need to blog about this," I whispered back.

So tonight, here I am... writing. Not a paper. Not a lesson plan. Not a case study. Not a check. Not a response to an email (I'm still working on that), not your late birthday card (yeah, eventually, I'll get to that too)... just a post on my blog about my toenails.

My three minutes (and then some) are gone; they were three minutes well spent. Perhaps I'll go take off my polish now.

7 comments:

Jen said...

I am with you on that, and commend your "bravery" for sharing with us. I, too, feel as if I am sinking or floating now that school and activities have started back with a thunderous roar. Just rest in the assurance that He is walking (or sprinting) along with us. All we need to do is include Him in our conversation and thoughts! Regretfully, I have to remind myself that when I feel like I'm going to go crazy, and then He gives me peace. I hope you have time soon to fill us in on what you've been working on. I think I'll go paint my nails!

Leah said...

Thank YOU for posting! I've been having withdrawls for a while now!
"What's Abi doing? Where is Abi? Wonder why she hasn't blogged? How are her toes?"
I love you and I love the way your toenails look with or without paint. I'm glad you spent these moments to give back to the blog. I love your blog and most especially I love YOU!
xo

Katy said...

Yes, I too am happy to read your blog. I know you are alive, breathing and making it through each day. :)

Whenever you get in your groove, I'm here. And I want to be here for you in anyway I can.

For real.

I love you.
KTB

Jan Parrish said...

Now here is a post we can all relate to. I hope you take some time to breath now. :) You deserve some time really!

Sandi said...

Yet another admission (and photo no less!) of something we all experience and may not always share. Thanks for the laugh, it brightened my morning!

Paula said...

I've missed you! I understand that whole rushed life when it seems you can't even find time to take off the nail polish . . . May God bless you as you adjust all those hats and seek to live peace.

Folayo said...

Here's an idea...update your blog!!!