17 February 2008

my nature

In my little red "Weekly Assignments" notebook, I blocked out this afternoon and evening to work on (to start) my term paper. I had BIG plans for researching, outlining... maybe a little writing today.

Well, I'm happy to report that my house is clean, the laundry is done, my eyebrows are plucked, I'm all caught up on phone calls and I've checked your blog... yeah. It's 9:22 p.m., and I haven't written ONE WORD.

Describe your theoretical orientation. What is human nature? How do people develop psychologically? What is mental illness? How does healing happen? What is the counselor's role in change? Describe how your theoretical orientation has been influenced...

Is he serious??

Dear professor: I'm 31. THIRTY-ONE! I've barely lived.What in the world do I know about a theoretical orientation?! I've never sat with a client. Heck, I feel like I just got out of high school. I'm still in my infancy... a wee babe, dear professor. I'm...

... delusional and in TOTAL denial. I'm evading, escaping, excusing, eschewing... exemplifying human nature at its finest.

I need to start writing. Just start, right? Just start, Ab... just start.

15 pages, 14 theories, a term paper, a comprehensive final, and 11 days to go...

I'm screwed.

6 comments:

Abi said...

OK. I admit it - a bit of catastrophizing and MUCH drama there by the end of last night. Actually, after a short but sweet night of sleep, I got some good work done this morning. Who knew? I actually have a theory...

Jen said...

It always seems worse at the end of the day!
I wanted to let you know I tagged you on my blog, so come over and read all about it.

Folayo said...

hahaha...I thought you were supposed to start writing after we got off the phone.

Shalene said...

I can relate. Kind of... Though I'm not in school, I am "home- schooling" my eldest daughter. Though it isn't "traditional" home school, it's actually a virtual public school, I'm feeling the pressure of helping her do a research paper, worth 500 pts towards her grade. Why am I feeling the pressure? Because if she doesn't do well in this venture (we just started it a few weeks ago) not only will my husband say she has to go back to the public high school she was in, but my other two school age children will never make it home, either. She's the guinea pig, and unfortunately, the worst student when it comes to getting things done. I have to stay on top of her all day. On top of that, I have a toddler at home, a Kindergartner, and a 6th grader, a house that needs my attention, eyebrows I haven't plucked in I don't know how long, I'm still in my robe and it's 11:30 in the afternoon, I've barely brushed my teeth and hair, and on and on.... So I can kind of relate. Here's praying for you, and a prayers for blessings for you as well.

Leah said...

Oh Abi, you know I knew you would pull thru.
You are the master of taking care of business... even tho some times it takes a bit longer than anticipated.
I can't wait to see you on the 5th at Broomfield.

Jackie R. said...

Abi-
Wow! He seriously wants you to put that all in to one paper!? Those are huge, long, intense questions! Here's my problem anyhow - I might like one theory but it doesn't work with all populations... like if I tried to be Rogerian/person centered with my girls - nothing would get done! ANyhow - that was just random. Hope it all went well!